one less person

it's wednesday!! counting down to end of 4-day week and long weekend! finally get to stamp passport! =)
when in rome was a funny light-hearted rom-com, quite good for a slack night's out. but we really shouldnt always be eating MOS and watching movie at the same time.

nice song from S.H.E : 少了一个人

朋友聚会吵闹的快乐 在她们离开以后变稀薄
走路回家 回像山洞的窝 突然渴望有人 能来接我

泡著热水在浴室赖著 思念却也被滚烫冒烟了
最后的简讯 看到能背了 多久没有再联络 一想还是痛

少了一个人宠爱我
朋友的爱 成分就是不同
最难过 是笑著面对被羡慕自由
练很久的成熟 也快遮掩不住 寂寞

妈妈在电话裏挂念我 上次欲言又止她还记得
喜欢装没事 其实最累了 但我清楚很多事 哭了也没用

少了一个人拥抱我
那种拥抱 能够忘了所有
两个人 就算下雪后赤脚逆著风
也不觉得冰冻 还笑得比阳光 炽热

少了一个人懂得我
能够体会 我倔强又脆弱
不记仇 温柔原谅我情绪太波动
用泪光舍不得 融化我累积的 寂寞

很固执 无条件爱我从来没变过
在大吵的时候 会抱著我 沉默 不动

peaceful

夜的宁静 是时候好好反省

月的阴晴 圆缺就像我的心

夜下着雨 天在哭泣
不知道何时才放晴
我忽然非常想念你

你的背影 让我失去了理性
你的放弃 让我迷失了自己
你的离去就像刺青
永远烙印在我的心
是如此痛而如此的美丽

我努力的想哭泣 却哭不出泪滴
一次又一次的灰心 才发现早已麻痹
终于发现自己 已经不在乎你
原来分手 也能如此安宁

truth is...

i've moved on. i've let go, not holding on to the memories, the past, the have-been. the pain, the feeling of betrayal, all these have subsided. in the short span of 2 weeks, i am not emo nor affected by you anymore.
but i won't forget, and i can't. for it was a painful lesson. i won't forgive, cause you were wrong, way out of the line.
don't bullshit me, it will not be considered cheating only if the male dictionary was consulted. don't try to say nice stuff to salvage, i don't want to hear that we should be friends because we were together for 4 years, and know each other well. why didn't you think of our 4 years together when you did what you did.
i don't want to spend my time arguing with you. let's just take it that whatever we said when we parted ways were just to make each other feel better, and wasn't what we really believed we could do. i said we could be friends. you said to give you time to resist succumbing to the devil.
so i guess we both need not keep our word now.

我对你这一生哪个可比
我与你差一些永远一起
邂逅时间场地似连场好戏
要自何页说起
爱太重深呼吸欠缺空气
爱太美轻轻的却载不起
爱情来到时候似明媚天气
它走了突然骤变雪落雨飞
如果可以恨你全力痛恨你
连遇上亦要躲避
无非想放下你还是挂念你
谁又会及我伤悲
前事最怕有人提起
就算怎么伸尽手臂
我们亦有一些距离
你太远该怎么说对不起
你太近一转身却已高飞
快乐也许太短似场流星雨
一眨眼就如幻觉怕又记起
我情愿我狠心憎你
我还在记忆中找你

took 2 days of mc the past week. realised there's really karma. what goes around comes around. but still, i guess i will risk it again. hahaha it made the week pass faster, and it was a good break from work, even if i did nothing but rot.

walked around in chinatown to recce and gather some travel ideas and budget. and then snuffed a cookie before heading to the highlight of the afternoon- dimsum at yumcha restaurant. keep hearing my bro visit this place on his off days, so i guess i should try it too. high-tea buffet at $18.80++, which came to $22 per person.
it's actually on the second floor above a carving shop. (couldn't get the complete circle of lights la).

i guessed we were a bit over-hungry. hahaha
the first round of food we got were not photographed in detail, as we were really hungry, and that lt said that he thinks photos are prohibited. LOL -_-didn't try any cheong fun, cause we were too full by then. but we tried really quite a lot of food. the items were decent, except the char siew bao we tried => fail. if not i would have tried the custard bao. oh, and we both disliked the custard roll, which had too strong a pineapple taste.

cause we're too full, we had to walk around. aimless traipsing while trying to walk from chinatown to raffles place, and we stumbled across a temple. so we entered and took a look around. prayed and offered some joss sticks, before climbing up to the roof garden. it's quite a nice sanctuary, that little garden to walk around in, where it's quiet and peaceful.

it was actually a random decision, but appreciated lt's company to spend an entire afternoon talking crap and eating. too bad i can't do it more often. eyes a bit tired looking hor? :(

looking forward to meeting friends next week for dinner and also movie =) and then it'll be april!!!! KELONG! BINTAN!! wahahaha maybe i should organise some food gatherings too, hmm... http://www.ladyironchef.com/2010/02/25/breakfast-places-singapore/#more-4573

lalala

here's a secret: it's not good to eat too much. wahaha =p

planning a trip that includes two countries is damn hard. even though there's no budget limit, but cost is nevertheless a factor that has to be considered. especially since it's going to be x4.

nothing interesting going on in life right now. shall just wait and see what life has got to bring.

i always have random thoughts when i bathe. and today's random thought is that so far, the only thing i ever regretted is that i never got to read those damn smses. even till the end, i was kept in the dark by you.

time to sleep! thurs, fri, sat. can april please come quickly!!!!!

clearing stuff

cleaning my table that looks like a bomb dropped on it. bank letters, tax form, travel guides. LOL

set about writing a letter with an apt song playing in the background. 用心酸微笑去原谅了，也翻越了。明天是自己的，开始懂了，快乐是选择。而我，在上个星期得到问题的答案过后，已经放下了。豁然开朗了，不再难过了。阿妹燕姿也失去 power了。 haha

have yet to upload the photos of the rare dinner with weeinn! i was totally too tired to even online after work ends the past week. work has been tiring, what with issues cropping up left, right and centre.

persevere! looking forward to april!! any time away from all these rubbish is good! =p

i need to meet gen and ql more often. and i worry about xm.

[photos update!] sushi tei at tamp one!
a group shot of 7 girls will probably be hard to capture nowadays. shall make do with one of 4! 3 months since i saw weeinn!!!! unbelievable.
during dinner, received sms that mr moo passed away. it seems so sudden and he was only 64. did not plan to attend the memorial, but it's true that he contributed a lot to the education of the youth. may he rest in peace.

3rd week of march, and it's only thursday

super busy week @ work, doing lots of i-dunno-what that amounts to running around, and frowning, and 'supporting production' and all a load of other shit. Exhausted. Dun even wanna think about having to work this & next sat. Shall just happily fast forward to april 1st and last weekend.
Poor quality of sleep and noisy family members are making me an insomniac. Boohoo..
Luckily met the girls on wed night, otherwise i'm probably gg to get sick of seeing only my colleagues. One more day to weekend. I need to hang in there

actually i dont feel much

jay's song. 你比从前快乐。

i was never going to be irene kng. simply because i dont think i am ever going to love a guy that much to swallow all the betrayal and hurt.

i asked you did you find that feeling of love? are you happier now?
and u replied sometimes you are happier.

with that answer, i know i made the best decision for both of us. being happy sometimes may not be enough, but it would have been better than both of us dragging it longer and ending up being unhappy all the time.


i don't have any words left to say. do i say thank you, for not lying to me? do i scold you, for letting my belief shatter into pieces? do i treat you as a friend, even though i do not want to hear about 'your clique' and what you've been doing? how am i supposed to treat you now? who do you treat me as now?

i still love you. but i let you go. and give myself the freedom to explore a wider world.

even though reading those smses of the 2 days after we broke up made me cry to sleep.

friday night

backdated photos of friday night, where we queued for one hour to go timbre at ACM.

chicken kebabs were spicy but not fantastic, triple mushroom pizza was quite nice though it wasnt their specialty.

talked all the way through dinner, and enjoyed performances by enigma. left at 1030pm, wondering if we should go home, since i was working on sat. but then we continued to walk to clarke quay to TCC for desserts. lol fattening, but i was craving cheesecake, and the cheesecake cafe is too bloody far. hahaha

happy sharon with her strawberry dessert.

and we went home with full stomachs at 1am. i think i suffered from slight indigestion on saturday. i think i never realised we had so much that we could talk about lol.

i damn feel like a holiday. the topic of love is depressing.

放不低

是你故意欺骗
怪在我太过心软
你的真话就等于梦呓与谎言
无奈你说得太自然
令我听了也能热暖
甜言蜜语原来又一次食言
是你对我改变
你别说世界转变
解释得混乱
千丝万段
太多纠缠
谁没兴致守这诺言
但却对我再全心诈骗
胡言乱语
任你讲足半天
为何永远放不低
为何错爱这一位
但求仍然维系
不惜一切
我为你执迷
为何永远放不低
任情爱控制身体
任谁关心
仍未可把你代替

4年的感情，原来说断竟可以断得那么快。不见面，不喧哗几句，没电话，没短讯。
骗自己熬得过，但心还是痛着。尽量不去想，但还是软弱。干嘛仍挂念，还独自掉泪。
他看得到吗？值得吗？

但我要怎样鼓起勇气再去相信爱情，相信男人？

难过。原来爱情那么伤。

damn

being emo on thursday- damn.
bad news on friday-damn.
working on a saturday- damn.

trying not to think too much about bothersome stuff. need more things and people to make me believe that life's good and happy. although i can improve what i have, but at least right now, i am content.

can i look forward to the short getaways in april, june, and september??

company D & D 2010

the hectic OT and mad scrambling to get the event done in time was finally over. i guess it could have been better, but i'm really just thankful it wasn't a flop.

the decorations, the door gifts, and the lucky draw prizes- minimum one for each person! =)

stayed overnight at the orchid country club, which really feels like a short holiday.

my luck wasn't that bad, got a ipod nano! hahahaha, and the swensens vouchers were given to me by my AGM.

been on course these past 2 days. kinda sad that it's the last course. why aren't there more?!! back to work tomorrow, 3.5 days week. :(

planning taiwan trip, hopefully i can do it. ahaha